There’s just enough time for me to squeeze a blog post in this month.

There has been so much going on in June that I’m not entirely sure how to round it up. It was a month of highs and lows, of big hellos and big goodbyes.

I finished a draft of a new YA book, I wrote 3 screenplay treatments, and I have a new iron in the fire with a screenwriting partner. I went to the Edinburgh Film Festival, saw so many films that I can barely even remember them, and danced at parties like someone who has never seen anyone else dancing before. I performed on stage at the Scottish Storytelling Centre, discovered the highs of making strangers laugh (when they were supposed to) and the painful lows of finishing a performance, and edited together a showreel for my acting work. I made new friends, met old pals, gained new family members, and broke my mobile.

It’s actually all been a little overwhelming.

It’s hard to let yourself feel things sometimes – whether you’re confused, sad, lost, vulnerable, happy, optimistic, proud, whatever. There’s something quite wonderful about going to somewhere remote but astonishing and beautiful, and allowing yourself to feel small. It’s just you and nature, back to basics.

A couple of years ago, after my sister died, I went on a big hike alone around Glencoe and the Commando Monument. It helped me to think about things at the time, and make a bit of a plan for the future.

Anyway, I did the same today. In an attempt to get some distance from everything, I jumped on a train and went to Stirling. A wee hike to the Wallace Monument – including the 246 step climb to the airy top – and the subsequent walk around Stirling in the muggy heat helped to clear my head a little.

stirling

I’m not going to tell you what I was thinking about – that’s between me and nature, baby – but it was good. After the highs and lows of the last few weeks I feel a bit more level now. Things are going to be interesting for the next few months, that’s for sure. I feel like a change is gonna come.

I can tell you this, though. I need to be in a play again, on stage and making people laugh. The feeling is extraordinary.

Here are some random snaps from the month:

And here’s Sam Cooke, because why not:

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